Webter theater, May 7 2011

Webter theater, May 7 2011

My life has been filled with heartache for quite awhile. My sister has stage 4 cancer and my parents are fighting for what they have left in them, so they can help her. The pain at times has been unbearable. I have three young daughters that has seen their mom cry too much.

When I heard The Deftones were coming I ordered my tickets right away. I finally had something to look forward to. I have seen them twice before and got such an adrenaline rush from their shows. Only one who has been to their shows would understand. Knowing that I was going to the concert, gave me something else to think about, besides the dreadful reality my family has been going through. I have to still keep going on for my girls and this is definitely what I needed to put my ass into gear.

I asked my friend to come with me. She has never listened to the Deftones (but now likes them). I told her how bad I wanted to be in the front for my chance to touch Chino. I even told her not to drink anything, so she wouldn't have to pee. I didn't want to lose our place! I was almost tempted to buy some depends. Just kidding. We traveled two and a half hours from where we live. We got lucky and parked right in front of Webster theater. We waited for two hours before entering just so I could get a chance to be up front.

While waiting outside we met a couple of people who had VIP tickets. They met the band and I was envious. I didn't know about these when I bought my tickets or else I would have purchased them. I so badly wanted to meet them.

After entering, I kept asking my friend to go to the bathroom so we wouldn't lose our place. We were right behind the people in the front. Funeral Party come on and my friend looked pretty happy. When Dillengers Escape Plan came out her happy face turned to a look of terror. At the end of their performance the shoving began. This kid next to me was throwing his four foot locks into my mouth and it penetrated my eyes. Yuck! She got nervous and started holding my hand. I felt bad, she looked uncomfortable. When the music stopped she had to go to the bathroom. Oh God, I didn't stand outside all that time for nothing! She said she would just meet me after and didn't mind if I stayed up front. So I did.

As soon as the Deftones walked on stage. I was immediately pushed to the front. The intensity was so unbelievable. I didn't think people could get any closer but they did. I had guys pressed behind me and on the side of me. My boobs were squeezed against the fence (later bruised). I would have been annoyed but when Chino came off stage and right in front of me I didn't care. I even had guys armpits reach right across my face just to touch Chino. This was it. I touched Chino's stomach, sweaty arms and ran my fingers through his hair. I was in heaven. Plus the sounds of his voice were like sex penetrating my ears. I screamed every song, then got lucky for a second time. He came back and grabbed my hand. THIS WAS THE BEST CONCERT IN MY LIFE (even better then my eight times seeing Depeche Mode)! I even got a guitar pick from Steph.

My only complaint is that I tried to take my flip camera out. The security told me I would be removed if I took it out again. Everyone around me had their phones and cameras. Why me. This was my most incredible concert moment. I wanted to get Video of Chino right in front of me.

I didn't want it to be over. The music was great and Chino sang with such passion that the intensity was bouncing right off of me. The eye to eye contact was incredible. By the time I found my friend I was soaking wet with sweat. It was like having incredible sex.
I was glad to see that she was OK. She was happy for me and wished she was up front to see my face. I wish she was with me to feel that surge of energy.

Some guy wanted to buy the guitar pick off me for $50. I told him "no." I now carry it in my wallet for luck.

Kind of sad its over. I even tried to figure a way out to see them again in the same week but then my reality set back in. I have my girls that I have to function for. But until next time around. Only hope one day to meet them.

I was able to release so much anger, sadness, guilt, and emotions I can't even express. Now I feel full of energy and excitement. I just want to thank Chino, Steph, Abe, Frank and Sergio for giving me such a good time. I'm so sorry Chi wasn't apart of my experience this time around.